Reflections..

Great. The previous entry I typed just did not appear. Great.OK. I got back my promo papers and guess what? I can be promoted. Hooray. If U can read between the lines, you might realise that this ain't a happy thing for me. Freak. My mAths has GoNe so deePly dowN the DraIn. oh my gawd. And ChEm.. And GeNeraL paperS the MOST depressiNg. trust me to think that i was safe with a day's cramming of facts. StuPiD. Simply StuPid. ArgH! I Dunch wanna see myself as a total loser. I failed in My PDP and Now Studies and My liFe w GoD...I kNow I haVe thinGs to Do. And aspire even more things. I wish to be a gooD runner, smart student, GooD friend and filial daughter. GAwD. can't imagine I'm becoming a little like Abraham Issac. A character from the BrOwn lit booK I was stuck with for two years. I thought I could count on GP..GueSs What? I managed to get off with an AO. Terrific. RighT. Tmr's the day where i make a huge decision. I'm not very sure if its that huge but it is to me at least. SOmehow I find myself giving up so easily these days. Too easily I allow a simple setback to get to me. Many times, I feel like I'm appreciated..yet I find myself lonely still. Can't help it. Where has all my courage and faith gone? The courage that kept me strong and faith that kept me believig that I was strong and could overcome whatever that came in my way. Silly?Foolish?
These few days are 'gloomy" as someone put it today. I pray that the sun will rise for me..to take the gloom away, someday. But for now..I shall be happy with being able to see the 'the black litebulb' everyday. ;P