LIFE is like a leech.

HELp! HeLP! HeLP! my social life is going topsy turvy! I think I shoudn't have posted the post about friends.. perhaps..sometimes...we should never do things on impulse..but then again...Why is it that I feel like I'm such a loner now? Is it true that there is no such thing as a true friend in this world? Thank God I have two rather good friends though....Oh my oh my....help......THinGs is the attic havent really been that great either..I don't know what the hell is going on is Big Boss's mind..I just can't seem to talk to him either..and so is the same witht he rest of the gang...I just find myself talking stupid stuff...What the hell!!! I don't want to be like that! It's so damn pathetic.and that internship thing...i had a horrible day yesterday..with two CHAIN smokers!! OH-My- GawD! Can anything be worse than to have the head and the assistant head be the type of person that I hate the most ( i.e. puffers)?!! Ok...I know i know...I have to be tolerant..argh!! And u know what? I think theres some racial issie going on here...there are only three chinese and the rest are malays..and we seem to stick with each others groups..sigh....I'm really worried for the camp...What if I can't take the group? I don't seem to see the complete picture actually...everything seems so fast...its confusing....I really don't know what I'm doing AGAIN! it's just so tiring to socialise sometimes..and know what? I didn't go to visit God again. it's just this internal struggle week after week after week. And the main problem is----I can't seem to just focus on GOd alone and forget the crappy pple ard who stick together like mud====the cliques. And worse still..now..there seems to be a division between those who are 'active' and 'non-active'.....ok..betcha can't get a nut about what I'm talkin about.

*&*%^#^%^$#$!!! Life is like a leech. It sucks and simply won't let you go until it is full. My life was never full. Hence. it STILL sucks.