The world sucks! Especially friends. They are a rotten bunch.

I wanna scream!!! I wanna cry!! Why??!! I just did the most horrible thing in the whole wide world!!! i said the meanest thing to my good friend of six years..now..I think it's over... But the thing is...I feel that it's so hurtful to have friends! Why can't I survive living alone? Why must I alsways bother about what others think of me? Why should sopme people be so stuck up, feeling so sad that they are not being heard in a group or be so bothered by relationship problems when theres so much more people out there that are suffering much worser fates?! THink about countries with corrupt governmentsand those that live under constant fear , poverty or have to worry about meals everyday? They may not even have to worry sometimes because they may be well convinced that there'll be no food for them anyway.
You know what? I think for once, I want to be the mean girl. I 've been trying to be a good person all the while, so much so that I feel that being good may not be good after all. No one sees it. No one appreciates! What the hell! Why must I keep looking down on myself! And worse still, let others look down on me?!!!! No way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn stupiD irritating,dreadful OAC. Want to solve problem??? Where's the effort?!!I don't need any empathy! Don't force yourself to talk to me if you think its so hard!!! I'll do without any honeyed words. Betcha no one will even notice if i just disappeared into thin air one day!! NO ONE! Not even my closest friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NO ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not even my mother, my father ( least of all!) or myself.