RaRHH!!! Hear me roar!

Just came back from a jog of sorts. Hmm. Apparently I think that I am officially an ADDICT. A running addict that is. I can't believe that When i planned to spend half a day on one chap of chem, I ended up spending three quarters of the day on it! Bad organic chEm! BAD BAD BAD!!! Anyway, I was so saturated and fed up that I decided to go for a jog instead. I couldn't take anymore stuff in , much less a monotonous boring subject as IT. BUT! Nevertheless..I WILL MAKE MYSELF LOVE IT...at least for the next few days!

I planned to jog the long long dover route initially, but then as I was jogging, somehow I was really disturbed and irritated by the horrible exhaust fumes...knowing that the dover route was lain with a long stretch of polluted air before the nice 2.4km stretch of fresh air, i felt that i didn't want to make the sacrifice,the opportunity cost was too high, and my lungs were at risk. I need more fresh air for a fresh mind during exams.

So eventually, I created a new route. I ran up the steep red brick slope, then ran out to the main road, past SDE, up to YIH, to the track. Wanted to run at the track considering the condition of my knees. UNFORTUnately, the track wasn't empty as what I had anticipated, or rather, i didn't expect there to be some soccer training going on there. Yes. I'm paranoid. And I don't like many people( esp the XY people) sitting ard staring when Im jogging. Its a self image issue. AND a gender discrimmination issue. yes. Apparently, I think I've come to discover something new about myselF. I have an issue against guys. yea.

ANYWAY, back to my run. So I had a new idea. I decided to head to West Coast instead. Off to the park I went. When I reached there, I was mostly glad that I was lead there. Somehow.The only unfriendly thing that greeted me was not exhaust fumes, but the foul smelling ammonia or whatever fertiliser that was sprinkled ard the plants in the park. Oh well. At least it wont kill my lungs that badly. Something about the park made me kindda nostalgic. Since the park was located near the PSA( the place where cargo are loaded and unloaded)..the sound from the movement of the machines that moved the huge rectangular loads of cargo made me remember the days as a young kid when I went to visit Uncle Danny at World Trade Centre. I always looked forward to visiting this really exciting discovery centre when they showed you the exact same process of cargo management and I heard the exact SAME SOUND! Me and cousin Stacey would be so excited whenever we met up and made it a point to visit the place. I miss those times when I had her company. But things have changed. Hmm...I hope I can do something about it though..

Anyway, the jog to the park was COoL overall! haha.. I took a picture of this tree. It looked really calm and resilient against the backdrop of a grey sky. It was a rather bare tree but had bright green leaves sprouting from the tips of the branches. It was somehow empty yet filled with life. The atmopshere it created was hopeful yet gloomy. Too bad my old nokia doesnt allow me to upload the photo which i took.

The next part of my joG saw me running past some army people. Seems like they are having road march again? Haha. reminded me of OAC days. The 72k. Man. They must be envying my freedom. Hahaa...in home clothes, no restrictions. no curfews. hahaa. But then again. Im not as carefree as it might seem what with the exams. But then again, I am free in christ!

The last phase was the BEST! I arrived at the playground aread and the large patch of green grass. God gave me a beautiFUl present. I saw my favourite scene of hope. It was the light rays piercing through the grey clouds. Beautiful. God is such a marvellous creator. I saw hope. :) HappY:)

Then, as some sort of anti climatic event, it started to drizzle. Thankfully, after a while, the drizzle stopped and I made my way back relatively dry. God is really good in the little things that he does. It started raining really heavily only when i reached hall. :) Another thing is that i believe that he saw through my safety whenever I go out to jog. Many times i almost tripped and risked a twisted ankle..thANK GOD for his protection:D

I'm really hoping to have more faith. I want to believe. But can I believe that I can believe? I see God working in my life. Why does it then still seem so hard to belieVE? I think i must really rememeber this line from the PRince of Egypt-
" tHere can be miracles, WHEN YOU BELIEVE."