sad
sad
sad
sad
sad
depressed
depressed
depressed

what am i doing?
what am i thinking?
Do I really have to think so much?
Do I really have to hate myself like this?
What goes of the faith?
WHat happenens to the trust?
WHat happens to the 'feel good'?
It's all a lie.
I can never be truly happy.
Why.
why.
Why.
Help.
I feel like my life is so uncontrolled.
Once again it's so hard to grasp the purpose and meaning
I do not want to live an idle existence.
Does God see my pain?

When will I truly live up to my destiny?
Why does the world seem so scary all of a sudden?
Why does everything seem so surreal to me?
One moment I'm feeling so good about myself, everything's going well
And POOF!
Before you know it. I'm down AGAIN!
I hate this so!
Stupid world
Silly obsessions
Sanity is not a question
Surreality is everywhere.
im living an unreal life in a not-so-real world.
What in the world am i blabbering about.
This is such a ridiculous waste of words.
GonEr.