I am trying to figure out what in the world is going on in my head exactly. Why is it that I seem to know what I am doing and yet not know what I am doing? Just a few minutes ago at past 1am, a squirrel was caught in my kitchen eating tuna sandwiches and pineapple tarts. If you are intelligent enough, you would know who I am referring to. OK. I'm the culprit. Oh man. To think that I thought i could conquer today without executing my bad eating habits. YOu see, I think I'm quite an extremist. I wake up in the morning, rush to brush my teeth as fast as possible so that i can quickly sink my germ -free teeth into the first bite of bread or biscuit or whatever edible surprises that I find being left on the kitchen table by mum. On the contrary, I would dread brushing my teeth at the end of the day so that i could prolong my intrinsic cravings for more food to store in my chubby mouth. That's possibly because I don't really have much for lunch or whatever during the afternoons, and that's also because I eat too much in the morning and end up too full for the rest of the day, until of course, when night falls and it's around supper time. Now I'm starting to seriously suspect that those 'squirrel' labellings that I have been getting are starting to have an impact in my life;why I think I act pretty like one: Eating more in the morning to store up energy for the rest of the day( much like a squirrel collecting many acorns to be stored up for winter).

Anyway, I hope to change this bad habit! I just want to be able to hvae normal proper meals. And they taste a whole lot nicer too! I hate the feeling of stocking up on my carbos in the morning and then not being able to savour the nice dishes at the economic rice stall at the YIH canteen! I can only stare pathetically at the green kailan, freshly stir-fried cabbage, juicy chunks of sweet and sour fish, tantilizing egg tou fu soaked in starchy sauce etc.! Maybe I shall just start a new routine tomorrow. Wake up, brush my teeth, go for a run, then go to school then do a road-runner to YIH after lesson and chiong all the food there! Ok. That sounds pretty extreme too. I guess, I really have to etch 'moderation' in my mind.

Today I stayed back in school for my OTOT (own-time-own-target) training. We ran the 8km Dover route followed by some light gym. Following which was a basketball game. Now I'm not really a fan of bbalL and I found myself struggling with 'mini-narrow-minded-me' to show that I had some talent in the game when in fact, I probably knew that I would look more like a clown than a pro. Well anyway, its only basketball that Im bad in. Hey I can sing, play the piano, guitar and most recently, dance! SO, the bottomline is, everyone has their own talents and i'm sure God has given me a certain set of talents that I can make use of to the best of my abilities. Trying too hard to excel in something just to gain the attention of others will only cause uneccessary worry and sadness. I live to please God!