SIgh. it's the second day of my official holidays and somehow, it's not as exciting as I expected it to be.. perhaps that's because a lot of my friends are still having their exams.

Anyway, min and I have decided to make sure that we go to ang mo kio hub to eat the new york new york! (Of course..we'll be waiting for you Grace to come along with us too!)The food looks super duper mouth watering! You even have a free flow of green cotton candy apparently! Strange colour, but it's FOC! haha. OOh..and we also said that we'll go shopping! And Peanut Buttering ( aka Jamming) and go Cycling at Bishan Park and watch VCD! Frankly speaking, I really don't know how much of this we can really accomplish...but anyway, I guess three months is a long time, there should be time for all types of nonsense isn't it?

Hmm, really hope to work too, but I'm afraid that it'll clash with training and all. Sigh. I really pray that God will create an opportunity for me! Coz I feel that I shld do something meaningful other than dragon boat this hols, maybe help out at a children's home or sthg? Doesn't have to be work per se I guess.

OH. And I just discovered that I have 'love handles'. Ok. BEfore you start having incorrect interpretations, they refer to the layer of blubber that you can pinch off from the sides of your waist! And what's more horrific is that I have three layers of pancakes when I bend down! Oh HORRORRRRR!!! GOSH! Ok. RIght now, I so don't like the idea of dieting. I'm against it! Because, I really love my food, thank you very much. I know I just lack the discipline to stop snacking lah. HAha...Bad habit of mine. Actually, My weight doesn't exactly affect me save for the fact that I'm in a school team sport. I guess there is always this inherent pressure to keep trim and fit and look good. But right now, I seriously think that I look super ugly whenever I'm running or gyming. Especially when I gym! Those thunder thighs and stubby calves just put my self-esteem on a run! i know I shouldn't be coveteous. Desiring to have those model things, skinny calves and flat tummy. But sometimes, you just wish that you could look a little better and perhaps, feel a little happier about yourself. I don't know. Perhaps my pursuit of sports isn't going the way I planned. I'm supposed to be trimmer and lighter! Not bulkier and heavier!

Haha. Perhaps. It's in the genes. HEy. Can't blame it on mother nature. You're big means you're big. No excuses. I guess, I really have to accept myself for who God made me to be. Afterall, I know that I'm 'fearfully and wonderfully',and let me add on, 'beautifully' made!