I have never ever been so stressed in my entire life. The past 24 hours have been hair-tearing, pimple-popping, stress-bingeing, butt-numbing, tear-jerking and well, just super duper crazy hours! It was a simply a crazy rush to complete my political science essay from saturday to sunday and till this morning. It got so bad that I dreamt the previous night that I was rushing my essay on a car on the way to school and was relieved to discover that they had extended the dateline for submission! Now since when did I go to school by CAR? Of course, when I woke up, there was panic in me that threatened to jump out and send me in a frenzy upon the grim realisation that the dateline was today and there was NO extention. However, I must say that God has been faithful. I was more at peace when I did my essay today, and somehow, I just know that he has given me the wisdom and patience and determination to complete the essay. I heaved a huge sigh of relieved when I finally completed the essay at around noon time.
For the rest of the day, I went to school to hand in the essay and then came back home. I decided against going for training today as I had to study for a test tommorow which I havent been really preparing for because of my pre-occupation with the silly essay! Anyway, it wasn't good to hear that the capt was not happy with the absentees today too. I mean, who would feel good about skipping training? And worse if that has caused you captain to be unhappy? Every training is important. It's crucial in making you stronger. Now, who doesn't want to become stronger? It's unfortunate that this time, I'm just unable to set the balance. Not everyone can be an all-rounder. Perhaps, I was starting to get complacent over my past results. Yeah. But I've got the wake up call. I'm going to start over.
Seriously, sometimes, I just so simply wish that I wasn't in DB at all. I enjoy the rowing and all, but when it comes to maintaining the individual fitness, I just think that sometimes, it just goes overboard. I used to enjoy keeping myself fit. Now, it becomes kind of dreadful and more often than not, I choose to give up on myself. It's crazy. All of a sudden everyone is competing with every to do the most number of pull-ups and feeling sore when one does less than someone else. All of a sudden, every one is rushing to install a pull up bar at home. This is madness! What's the meaning behind all this? Showing your committment to the sport by installing a bar at home? Oh come on. I mean, of course I would love to be able to break my barriers and do a pull-up all by myself. But it would be nothing but a self-centred achievement to me. OK. Now I can do one pull-up. So? Simply put, Pull-ups are for the narcissists.
Anyway, I apologise to anyone who might relate to this post. I know this is one of my more 'radical' posts so I'm writing this as a disclaimer. I'm seriously, stressed. So please be kind and allow me to voice my transgressions. This is crazy, why am I seeking permission to publish something on my own blog? Ok, whatever.
The Power of the Cross will help me overcome. The Power of the Cross will remove my sadness...Depend on God..Depend on God, His will be done in my life....
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2 comments:
haha i also in the same predicatment as u...dying of lack of sleep and u know how impt slp is to me right lolx...super long nv see u le..u must have forgotten us..*sobx*... anyways tc squirl :)
hey hey hey!
jiayou jiayou! essay rushing days will soon be over and u'll start missing them then! ok maybe not... haha
anyway, miss you! too bad din have much of a chance to talk to you more on Sat, but thanks for telling me how trg was tt day!
haha i feel so nuah!
anyway.. competitive team will always have competitive pple. you can either choose to join their competitive streak or enjoy the sport as you like it. have the BO CHUP spirit ah... works for me...
im in DB 4 yrs and can hardly do 1 pull up la.. so no worries! Muahaha
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