FIT for the time being

hey hey hey...I'm really gettin the jitters regarding the competition this sun.actually I just hope to do my best...but looks at all the pros who are taking part too...I guess it was all expected yea...."Do my best Do my best..I CAN I CAN I CAN I CAN!!!!!" its a fun thing man!!! I'm NOt lousy as long as I DO mY beSt and NOt OverEstimate myselF! YeaH! I can't wait to see what's in the goodie bag...and can't wait to NOT see my face become as red as a baboon's ass...BaH!!! I'm ChuBBy and can u imagine the picture when my cheeks are burnt red?! Haha..more skin peeling again...heh..
Sigh..I realise that the distance between SY and I is not as close as before le...so sad...sigh..like only can smile.say hi and bye...haiZ...U miss ur junior so much that U forget got me le....BUt I can understand y la...Y U seem to be able to gel with them...haha...rather than with this siao kia who whole day complain abt her problems...lala.
I can't wait for 14 Feb! Not becoz it's Vdae..but becoz there is the Lovely Bio Spa!! THen there is my "HuBBY" and "Lover" to please...haha..ok..and of course..poke my biG fat head into other pple's valentine business..heheheheh...I'm a sucker at concealing things man...today at the library with wl...OMG....I think I totally made a fool out of the both of us..we were laughing like siao in the libr and this PERSOn was like looking at us..in a strange albeit logiacal way...anyone wld think that we are both outta our minds!!! haha. so much for being SpIES! HEh heh...

Hey hye..saw the chaotarkia at the libr too! haha....so cool! haha..I meant our encounter and NOT the person! Okok...anyway..I guess I shouldn't be thinking too much..I sense that I'm becoming quite obsessed with eye candy ard that I'm not thinking or acting rationally...argh..the conflicting emotions that come with being amongst those with the y-chromosome. EEk...the ten years of " abstinence" probably had too great an impact on me..bleahz.

Haha...OAc today was not bad...the PT session was quite OKaY..except perhaps..I was talking a lil' too much..haha..this batch of juniors...some are really very enthusiastic..some look calm and cool..and some are pure jokers while some..well...would be better off somewhere else I guess...ok but now's not the time to judge YET. Argh..I must try to improve on my swimming!!! I swim damn slow! The free style that I practise is like.."short term"...sometimes I look like I'm trying too hard to look like a pro..haha...Can U imagine? I ate TWO wraps today! One from LJS and one from Mac's!!!! Am I gettin fat! Oh..btw...the one at Mac's tastes quite sucky...I mean...instead of lettuce...it's stuffed, jam-packed, over-loaded with onions onions and MORE onions! It makes me wanna puke....that raw, pungent flavour...the acidity from the juice sizzles in ur mouth so much that it makes u feel sick! Toatally! Anyway..no more wraps for me for the time being. SIgh..I'm thinking about a lot of things now...but I can't possibly enter everything in here...So Time to go;P

(p.S. I'm thinking about what it would be like if I were a little slimmer, a little fitter, a little more optimistic, a little brighter, a little happier, and a little more loved and appreciated...)