I have so much homework to do!!! I hate it!Well, all this complaining won't get me anywhere I guess. ok.that's an understatement. Anyway...was SUPPOSED to go gym and swimming with siYing today..but guess what? She cancelled it last minute...okay...so I thought that I could escape from the terrors of tutorials and all...but..guess not...sheesh...
Hrm....Will be going to UbIn tmr...the thougt of it makes me wanna cringe..oh well...more sun tanning....and mosquito bites...my feet were attacked by ants on the beach that day already...they looked kindda diseased now....ok....that's exaggerating...
Surf and Sweat is just next week...gee..I'm kindda nervous...actually, VERY. Two times of 3.6k..that's 7.2...Okay..normally, I would love to hear the distance..but these days...as I lament on how much I have to catch up at school and my plight in OAC....I'm kindda un-motivated to adopt enthusiasm in the things that I do ( or foolishly allow my self to do).
Sigh. There's this year one that keeps calling me up regardin OAC...like I'm some information centre for OAC like that. Hello...can't U wait until the next activity day to ask..Fine. I knew that my decision to message them was WRONG right from the very beginning..yet I stupidly did it. Urgh.
All right...I have gotta miss church tomorrow AGAIN!!!! Damn! StuPid DuMB OAC. I do regret quite a lot. I realise that I could be spending more time with GOd, with my Work and with my family and basically living a happier less stressful life if I had joined say...Choir or CCC or Leo and be contented with just being a member. THe rigours of being a leader probably wear me out.I believe that everyone is a leader in their own way. But if one can't even lead oneself and know the direction that he is travelling in..how can one be ready to take on others?
SigH. I hate it when I allow myself to be intimidated by people. That when U happily see someone you can talk to and almost open your mouth to talk to her and then this PERSON comes along..And you just totally shut up and feel downright stupid. AND pathetic. I am reminded by one verse which goes something like.."My God is my Strength...What can man do to me?" OK...obviously..I need more guts and attitude. I need to be stronger. Shed less tears and be more true to myself. I try to control my anger agaist this person who had been picking on me. It is he who sees the splinter in my eye but does not see the gigantic decomposing lOG in his. Talk about not being biased. I have quit trying to stereotype him, or arguing with him...it is indeed a sad case that he has to live his life without realising his faults..all the while seeing them as strenghts...the sheer downfall of male chauvinism and human pride. Well..life stil goes on for me.Past caring of the world, past caring of what tomorrow may hold.i gotta live each day to the fullest. Dream on.
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wEi...cant post a coMment on uR receNt eNtry...dUnnoe y?sO i aM posTiN it heRe...=))
Raeeeeeee!!!!!hu sae we are jus hi bye frens rite now??aiyohzz u arhz...we are still as close kkz...=))...hmmz...rather stress up with trials n tests these daes...gif me some tym ba...den i gif u a call or wad kkz??
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