The day was both long and short for me. After the stats lect, went to science libr to study for the stupid SS test. And till now, I HAVEN't finished studying! Ah...silly vegetation and reserves. The book is horribly edited! Or was it even edited at all?! In coherent sentences, chunks and chunks of paragraphs and words that make you cross-eyed and feel nauseous after a while.All the 'Pulaus' and all the adinandra belukas, meranti, seraya, tiup tiup, tembusu, kneed pneumatophore and blahblahs! And You even have repeated information! Exactly the same words in two different chapters! I hate chapter eight! it's the neverending chapter. The read till vomit chapter. God, pls grant me the patience to read!

Twas' a rainy day today. But the weather was pretty nice. ThaNk God for the Nice and cool day. I think I have many things to do. But I just can't seem to get done with one thing thoroughly before Im distracted and all figidtey. Silly thoughts.

I think my appetite was vorocious today. I ate like a glutton. Almost non-stop. Somehow. I keep telling myself to control control. Don't overeat. But it's just so hard. It isn't making me feel good in the long run. Just that temporary nice relieve from a carboH break won't do my health much good in the long run. Cut DOWN!No shapeless, FlaBBy AbDomeN for mE! RACH CAN DO IT!!! Shoo shoo shoo..all the blubber!!! No need for cover UPS! HAHA.

Somehow, i think i didnt really listen to His voice today. I was kindda caught up with all the things that I had to do. I don't want to treat Him like a Santa Clause. I don't want to pray like it's just a routine. I want to pray with passion. Pray with CONVICTION. Pray in FAITH! And posesses relenteless belief! I want to be a prayer WARRIOR! but................................................how can i?
When I can't keep my promises to God. When I'm lukewarm. When I doubt my own passion for Him?! When I disobey.

LorD. What does it take to be more like you?
What does it take to trust totally in you?
What does it take to truly love you?
LorD.
I want to believe
I want to love
I want to pray
I want to listen.

But yet,
I lack believe.
I don't know how to love.
I struggle when I pray.
I choose when I want to listen.

What does it really taKe,
to be who you destined me to be?

I depserately want to know.