This december holiday is especially special because this time, there is no holiday homework or projects or whatever rubbishy things will totally turn my holiday sour. Anyway, I just moved back home two days ago. I still have many many things to unpack. But somehow, looking at the amount of things that needs to be done, I just feel so lazy to unpack altogether.

Anyway, yesterday I just learnt about something called the 'tissue ministry'. So what do we do? We make ourselves, or rather, tisse, available during the alter call. Man, I was kindda scared about doing the job though. I'm ok with handing out the tissues but NOT ok with praying for the person. Of course I want to be able to bless the person with prayer, but, am I able to do it? I don't have the confidence do that yet. Just don't see myself that BIG yet..or rather, mature would be the better word. Well, anyway, I did try giving out the tissue, it was reassuring to see people accept my tissue. Or rather, accept my comfort.


Just watched Akeelah and the Bee yesterday night at HOME. I emphasize at home because apparently, my television is supposedly faulty, whereby the images turn green after awhile and you kindda get hypnotised by the 'shaky green' images. The amzing thing is, whenever I turn on the television, after awhile, it will be working normally. But when Dad turns it on, it somehow just refuses to work. Haha. ANYWAY, The show was FANTASTICALLY FABULICIOUS! I love the tiny romance between the two young actors. It just seems so pure and ok..sweet. There was this part where the boy Javier kissed Akeelah while the two of them were in his home. sO SCANDALOUS! And so bu yao lian! Here's the excahnge:

Akeelah: [Javier has just kissed her] Why'd you do that?
Javier: I had an impulse. Are you gonna sue me for sexual harassment?
[pause, then they both laugh]

Then there was this part when they were at the national spelling bee competition and akeelah's mum was talking to her. Javier was up before akeelah and in order to ensure that she made it back on time for her turn, he tried to play with time by asking the judges all sorts of stupid questions. Like repeating the definition five times or was it using it in sentences five times?And then even to ask them to put it into a song..HAHHAHAA>...Well anyway, the moment he saw akeelah return, he spelt his word at express train's speed. oK. seriously, You MUST watch the show yourself to get what I mean. but it was so ahem * sweet* of him man. Oh and he is gentlemanly too. Very. Even after coming in fifth in the competition, he still bowed and thanked the audience. True sportsmanship indeed:P

But the best quote of all...

Akeelah: [quoting Marianne Williamson] Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.The above quote tells us not to fear ourselves. well, I guess sometimes I do find myself in those shoes. Fearing myself. Fearing that anything I do will be wrong, will hurt someone or cause other's impression of me to change. I guess it's also a self esteem issue. I don't think I have a healthy self image. Even though I may seem like I know what Im doing, like I've got everything going on well for me, there's also this constant internal struggle to seek out my true self. Do i really want to live a life like that?

Where lies the purpose in all this thinking and mulling over what has been done? I should move ahead. Look forward. And so I shall.

In 2007..I SHALL..

1) Live stronger
2) Walk closer with Daddy in heaven
3) Be a Joy to those around me
4) Pick up piano again!

I shall add on to the list when i think of more...


yawn....'tis a boring monday. After finishing my akeelah, I have no more show to watch! SoB..
I need to find SOMETHING to do....Hmmm..but what can I do? Maybe I shall go to the park and spend time with me, myself and my shadow again..haha...oh, and GOd too:P