It's the end of the week once again and it's been pouring a lot lately. Funny how it doesn't seem to dampen my mood though, it just makes me feel more lazy which reminds me: I haven't touched much of my homework over the entire weekend. Ah. Rats.

Somehow, I would say that the other factors leading to this un-motivated state can also be attributed to me seeking to enjoy life while I can. Read: while exams are not around the corner. Also, DB has been sapping up quite a lot of energy from me. Both mental and physical. Recently, it seems to be turning into an utmost torturous experience for me. I feel like a robot. Like I am forced to be in the same motion. It's worst when we do the mileage. Imagine rowing for 20 minutes. Going through the same motion, using the same muscles, feeling the lactic acid build up, and needing to constantly remind yourself to breathe ( coz one can be so caught up in the motion that one forgets to breathe). And turst me, those are the longest 20mins of my life. Sometimes, it can get so bad that one shuts out the entire world and just concentrates on one's own stroke. Which is also highly nO gooD.

Seniors have talked about not being encouraging and echoing the counting. Well,I think that I'm partially guilty. I do echo at times. And I would admit that sometimes, I do not really do so out of the depths of my heart. But am just going through the rigours of it. I mean, who's perfect? I just pray that God will continue to mould me and grant me strength for every training and hopefully, I will learn more about what team spirit means. Yes, I shall Surrender everything to Him!

Today at service, God told me that if I wanted Him to speak to me, I had to be humble and open. And I had to trust that whatever he reveals to me will be for my benefit. The main passage was taken from 1 Samuel 3. It's amazing how I just read that passage only quite recently. Hmm. Is God telling me something? That I should be like Samuel and learn from certain traits from Eli? Indeed, I truly want to hear more from Him this year. It was some sort of a resolution I made for 2007..

Daddy God,
My ears are open,
My heart is open,
I yearn to hear you speak.

Daddy God,
I want to know you,
I want to be like you,
Holy and humble and meek.

Daddy God,
I long to run away from this world,
Into your outstretched arms,
And say how much I love you.

Daddy God,
help me to grow;
I want to love your people,
And help them out too.

Daddy God,
here I am;
Waiting here,
to listen to you.


May I hear Him over the spiritual radiowaves everyday! Hoping that everyone else out there will too!