SiGh. it has been a long day today. Had my first lecture at 12pm. It felt like eternity before I would get to LT8. Anyway, I was really pretty unfortunate to be sitting beside "Garlic Girl". Well, you see, this girl has a really bad smell on her. Yep. She reeks of garlic. I wonder where it came from. Did she eat garlic or had a garlic infusion bath? Anyway, I was trying to hold my breath as far as possible throughout the lecture, even hiding my nose in my shirt collar.

I met up with Charmaine today too! Finally managed to catch up with her after so long. Anyway, she brought me to the library to get the human development over the lifespan book. Really should thank her alot for that.

Then we had our lunch at YIH and did a little mugging.

Then I met Min. She still looked stressed over one of her modules. I really do not know what to say to her anymore. It was pretty depressing to see her in that state. That " I hate the world and the world hates me" kindda state. It seems that she has brainwashed herself with the idea that everyone is selfish. No one wants to help her.
Perhaps it's just the way humans are by nature- The evolutionary survival of the fittest theorY. Perhaps everyone just wants to be a little more protective. I understand what she means. Sometimes even if someone obviously doesnt need the study material anymore, they will still refuse or hesitate to lend it to you for fear that by doing that, you may be stealing some of their intelligence away from them. I have experienced that and I would admit that I harboured such a thinking not too long ago too. But I figured that knowledge is to be shared and no matter how good your stuff maybe, how the other party fares ultimately depends mostly on his own efforts.

She also mentioned that God had forgotten about her. Oh please. That's way too far. I don't seem to know her anymore. Since when did she become such a despaired and pessimistic person? Before we can say that God has forgotten about us, have we thought about whether we have forgotten about Him in the first place? Could we have been focusing too much on the supposed stress factors in our lives so much so that it crowds out GOd?

I just read a passage from my daily bread that We should not wait till the sun sets before we realise that we had forgotten to include God in the day. Well, it totally speaks about me. Funny how I always seem to sit down at the end of the day and regretfully admit that I had forgotten about spending time with GOd. I really need a change.


Currently, I'm feeling horrid. Nauseous.I came back in the rain and didn't have a good dinner at all. Had dry biscuits with soya bean. Now my throat feels a little sore.

My heart too.

WHy can't I ever seem to be able to get along with my mother??

Or am I thinking too much of it?

Each time I come home, it seems like I can never ever find the right words to say to her. She doesnt even seem to care about me anymore. In fact, she's more worried that i dirty up her home with muy presence. Am I such a burden?! Does she really detest me that much? Does she seriously think that I like coming home to a place where DAd is always like a mannequin in front of the TV while mum is like a housekeeper robot: which automatically turns on when I get home.It's not like I bring the SARS virus or harmful E.Coli back with me. Maybe one day I should bring the E.Coli from the lab lessons back and let them manifest all around my home without her knowledge. Then we shall all suffer from severe diahrroea and vanquish.

God, please help these children of yours who seem so lost to place their trust back in you. We are your sheep. Just a little lost up there in the mountains. Please come to our rescue. And come quickly. Please.