Just saw the need to reflect on my life before reaching the middle of the week...

These days it somehow seems pretty hard for me to focus on my studies. My days have been revolving around DB and lots of OTOTing. Unfortunately, semester two is usually the most intensive period of time for us as we have the Big race in July to train up for. Truth be told, I never saw myself training every single day of the week when I intended to join DB. Well, initially, training everyday seemed like quite a cool idea, but then I realised that soon, it began to become pretty meaningless at times. I wonder: Am I spending too much time on training? Is it even effective? Why put myself through it? Why is it that I get this sickening feeling that I will be physically less fit if I miss even a single training and skip running for a day? It feels like DB is consuming my life. I know I have the control over it. I must learn to know when is the proper time to train and when is the proper time to rest. I must not follow others blindly!I must let God take control!

These days, there seems to be so many things going on around me that it gets pretty draining after a while and I end up ignoring them altogether. It has come to the extent that I become lazy to reply SMSes and email messages, considering them unworthy to be replied. Rats.

Why does it seem like the whole world is coming against me? Why do I seem to be fighting for my stand the whole time to protect my fragile ego?

I really need to stop and take a deep breath.
No. I do not want to breathe in and hold for three pathetic seconds.
I want to be able to breathe in and out, and in and out, till there is no more oxygen in the atmosphere for me to survive on. Then I'll call it a day.Haha.