Dear GOd.
Please help me to lose weight.
Get down to COMPLETing my HW
And Stop Procrastinating!
In Jesus name, AMEN.

Such a crappy post.
I just feel like punching all the keys in my keyboard.

God again reminded me to turn to his word today.
And the importance of having a relationship with Him.
That's only how we can hear from Him.
Great insight there.
He told me the same thing at the DG gathering.

Today on stage,
I told myself that somehow I just have to HAVE TO really believe that I was made to worship Him and that I can reach out to Him if I tried to.
Sometimes, serving on sundays seems like a dream to me.
A beautiful dream.
Where everything is perfect.
ok. Almost perfect.
How I wish I could spend time with Daddy everyday like this.
Just focusing on singing to Him.
On loving Him and praising Him.
And not having to worry whether I'm doing well enough at school.
Not having to worry whether I need to improve on my rowing.
Not having to worry whether or not mother doesnt treat me like I would like her to.
Not having to worry about eating being a sin in my life.
Not having to worry whether or not anyone can see me.
I just feel so stirred to express myself on stage.
Somehow.
It just seems like a place where I can just,
Move freely.
Sing freely.
Smile freely.
Cry freely.
Without caring about what the world thinks about me.
It's a place that almost seems like heaven.
Where I am sitting beside my Father's throne.

Yet at the same time,
I know that I must also be able to lead others in my act of worship to Him too.
So I pray.
That as I find my place.
In this big big chapel to love my daddy
I pray,
that all my fellow friends in christ.
Can also do the same.
Coz it's somehow kindda sad
to see people just stand there.
And not seem happy to be in Daddy's house.
I pray though.
That even as they stand there,
they will be ministered.
And someday.
like me.
They will learn what real worship means...
AMEN?

AMEN!

What a great way to end this post:)