And the new academic year begins..

Recently, life has thrown me a barrel of decisions to make. Should I stay in hall or not? Should I bid for this module or not? Should I accept myself as who I am or not? Should I pursue after an interest or not? Should I quit piano lessons or not? The greatest headache is that some of these decisions are interrelated. For example, If I choose to stay in hall, then i would not be able to practice the piano, which means I would be wasting away the so very hard- to-earn money of my aged working parents away.
And if I stay in hall, I would have to wash my clothes myself everyday by hand coz I guess I simply can't trust the washing machine to clean my clothes. Or rather, I think I have pretty much gotten used to washing clothes by hand and having a stand-by hand ( ie. the mother's) to wash for me. What an irony it is, when I've chided the mother for not utilising the washing machine which sits at the corner of the kitchen, lonely, hardly touched. I think I would name it, the 'white elephant' in the family. Ok. I sidetracked. In addition, if I were to stay in hall, I would be able to avoid being picked and nagged by the mother for pulling the toilet paper too long, wetting the bathroom floor after a bath, reading newspapers on the floor ( apparently, it will make the floor black); and yada yada yada...In a sense, it's escapism. But something inside of me just knows that staying in hall isn't a long term solution. It's just a fact of life that I have to face. I realise that all mothers are pretty much alike. Just that the mother is at the extreme end and possibly suffers from a case of obsessive-compulsive behaviour. In addition, the-only-child cannot really bear to leave her two elderly parents alone at home. It's not so much of being filial, but I guess, no matter how much they always tell me to get out of the house and call me the 'peace-taker'( instead of 'peace-maker'), I know I still matter to them. I hope. Ha.

Well O well O well...Actually, the best decision is right before my eyes. I should jolly well stay at home! That way I can enjoy bus and train concession which is such a 'luxury'! Haha.And! I can practice my piano! And! I might be able to give tution! And! I can always have my 'second hand around to help me with the laundry when my hands get painful from all the washing!

Hooray. The last round of bidding is fianlly over. You won't be able to believe how stressed out I had been the whole day. And the past two days. It's the first time that I have to bid all the way to the last round coz I got outbidded in all the earlier rounds due to my stingyness. Haha. I pray really really really hard that I will get my last two mods!!!!! DEar Lord! Please! Help me get those mods! Thank YOU! Amen!