Easter.

It's been one exciting week for me. At the start of the week, I knew that I would be pretty overwhelmed by the many activities during the week of Easter but then I knew too that all I had to do was to leave everything to God. I wouldn't deny that there were moments throughout the week when I felt a lack of faith and motivation especially with relation to the three-day fast. Somehow within me, I didn't feel a great conviction to fast because I simply did not seem to have the purpose in sight even thought I knew full well what I should be fasting for. It's really contradictory and definitely a period where I felt pretty "tested" in my faith. Well, eventually, I decided to settle for some sort of fast by sticking to a liquid and fruits diet. Considering how much I loved my carbohydrates, I figured that abstaining from them was a good start to fasting. And even though this period of fasting didn't see my friends responding to the invitation, I would not say that it has gone to 'waste' for it has made me think harder about what I believe in. I started to ask myself questions like why am I fasting? What am I pursuing after in this life? And admist all the persecution and arguments against my faith that i face, was I able to stand strong for Jesus? Was I able to uphold His name?

I've come to realise that there's really no point in this debate about Christianity and the truth about the Word. It's either you choose to believe it or not. And the only way that you can believe in it is if God gives you the conviction of the Holy Spirit to help you to believe. Afterall, Jesus said to Thomas in the book of John that faith is believing what you cannot see. It's always easy to only believe what you can see. Logically speaking. But at God's level, it's what you cannot see that counts. The Greeks in the bible were known as people who liked to reason things out. Why was Jesus crucified? Why couldn't He save himself since He was God's son? Or if you consider the Holy trinity, Jesus WAS God himself, and did somebody say that God was immortal and omnipotent? You see, it doesn't make logical sense for the one who proclaims to be the saviour of the world to be treated like the worst of the worst criminals. The Jews and Greeks just couldn't buy that. Thus, they rejected God. And they all wanted Him dead. But yet, the truth of it all was that Jesus was resurrected on the 3rd day. He cheated death. And this of course is an even more difficult fact to believe in. Dosen't ressurection only occur in horror stories? Well, those movies are boring. The fact is that 2000 years ago Jesus's death and ressurection freed me from my sins is the best story I've ever heard of. And I so need to proclaim that over my life right now.

Anyway, before i forget, I have a few things to thank God for this past week:
1) I thank God for helping me to complete my stats tutorial in time
2) Thank God for giving me strength to endure my trainings
3) Thank God for creating the time for me to leave early from lab to serve on Maundy Thursday!!!
4) Thank God for the wonderful people that make my day and never fail to encourage me like Min and Hami
5) Thank God for more wonderful people that I served alongside with during Easter like Hope, who never fails to both entertain and inspire with her endless stories; Uncle Yeo, the active-ageing model example; Jaymen the one-man stand-up comedienne; Sammi the cheerful biathlete in the making; Joyce the elegant and charming lady who sang beside me; Ying Min whom I just got to know and whom I really enjoyed talking to; Jane and Esther who formed the eccentric trio with me that sang the ( chaotic but absolutely hilarious) Canon in " I serve a risen saviour"; and many many more who inspired me in some way or another! hee
6) Thank God for SALVATION! Haha...just imagine 200!!!! And min min's mum and minting attended!!! WOOHOOO!!! Breakthrough man!
7) Thank God for seeing me through it all :)

Well, it's a new week ahead! Next week is daddy's birthday! ANd also the start of lsm22o2 miniproject and lsm2104 miniproject! Haha...I know I have trillions of things to accomplish! But! I can do it! Looking forward to a new week to Thank God for:) Jiayou Rach!!!!!!!RAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!