I want my yellow and green canvas

I paint an ugly picture
Of pain, depression, guilt and shame.
Red, Blue, Grey and Black.
Each stroke executed
With greater intensity
Greater urgency.
It continues,
Until finally,
It's all dark.

Lord,
forgive me,
For I have given up on the race.
I have strayed.
Far away.

I need a white wash.

NOW.

Lord,
come quickly to deliver me.
I am tired of living this life of death.
I want the Life from you!

I know this is not my fault.
It's the thief.
That comes to steal kill and destroy.
BUT NO!
You have come that I might have LIFE
and have it to the FULL!

Maybe I do not need a White wash.

I need an entirely NEW canvas!

And I am going to paint it with Yellow and Green.

Yellow for the light that comes from Him to illuminate my life.

Green for Life that is sustained by Him and Him only.

I was made to be a JOY.

Remembering what a friend once wrote,

I shall not let anyone steal that from me!

I was made to Love God
I was made to Glorify His name
I was made to Obey God
I was made to be Thankful to God
I was made to Praise God
I was made to Serve God
I was made to Share God
I was made to be God's child.