Zeal for Your house consumes me.

Today was the first time I ever felt such a strong sense of indignation for God in His house. As I was on stage, there right in the front few rows stood this couple who showed total disrespect for His house. I shall not go into the details of their childish and inconsiderate behaviour but at that moment, I really felt like chasing them out at once. And immediately, I started praying to God to "cast all the mockers out!" In fact, I felt like Jesus cleared the Temple of the merchants and sellers and said, " Get these out of here! How dare you turn my Father's House into a market!"

But as the service proceeded, and we started to pray and sing in the spirit, I started to feel an overwhelming sense of sadness. It wasn't the first time that i was questioning God right at the back of my head, " Why Lord are these people so stubborn? When will they wake up and be shaken in their spirit? When will they realize that they are in the presence of their maker, the Creator of the world!!!"

I too wondered, "What, did they think that they were attending some concert? That all these were for show??"

Later on. I told God, " God, whatever it is, one day they will come to know who You really are. You will Shake their spirit. And then they shall come in fear and trembling. And stand in awe of You. Each and every individual in this place. " Well actually, I then added, " Well God, why not let them come to know you NOW!"

I realized that I had also been singing about God being worthy of worship. Many times, we don't realize who exactly we are here for on a Sunday morning. And perhaps, that's because we don't seek Him enough on all other days of the week. Or perhaps, we are just too used to the motion of things. We become physically there but not spiritually there.

Nevertheless, when I look beyond the first row, to the rows way behind, I somehow find, in those dark corners, people who truly desire to seek God and who were so in touch with Him, totally engaged in His presence. These are the people whom I am here for. To cheer them on. And these are the very once who encourage me to continue in this ministry. But of course, I must never forget that the LOVE of God is my greatest motivation for this ministry. And without a relationship with God, a ministry is just a meaningless motion.

I sometimes wonder if my idea of faith is too idealistic. So much so that it hits me back at home, where I face the OTHER battle, between similar Christian faiths.

But, I believe that all I need to focus on and do now is to keep loving God. And by that, I have to learn to love those whom I find hard to love. Even if I don't believe in what they believe in, I shall let my actions of love and obedience be a living testimony to our faith. I just hope that one day, we will see eye to eye on things regarding the Kingdom of heaven.