Since when did loneliness become a problem for me? And the only possible solution is to start making friends? Why...isn't God enough? Have I believed wrongly? I need a break. I need to stop admiring other people's social lives and start working on mine. But problem is, I am too comfortable being by myself. This is pathetic. Am I my own disaster in the making? What does God want me to do in this case? WHy do I just feel like running away to another place and hiding away from where I am right now? Why do I feel like running away will solve all my probleMs? WHy am I always thinking tHat nobody cares about me and its just me caring for other people? WHY do I feel like everyone takes me for granted? Why is it that people think I am a joy to them but no one really cares when I am sad? Why do I not bring joy to the very ones that are closest to me? Am I being too selfish to want attention from people? Am I? Or am I supposed to assume that life is just like that?? I don't want to let my life waste my life away but that is what I am consciously doing right now! What's wrong with me!??! I don't want to post things that are unhappy. Enough of all this talk about only posting things that edify. Afterall, no one is probably reading this anymore coz no one cares anyway. So in essence, I am complaining to myself. ARGH! Hate this feeling! Hate this situation. How can I ever get out of this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!