DEPRESSED.

Haha....haha.....I actually did it.....haha.....
I'm SICK.
In the MIND.
In the BODY
In the SOUL.
HAHA.
I thought I was a narcissist.
YEt.
I don't feel Like I treasure or love myself at all.
WHy do I do things that harM myseLf?
Is it all ScuBconcious?
I hate it.
Why can't I stop?
I keeP poNdering over The SamE iSsue.
THe More I THiNk,
The More COnFusinG and DeprEssIng it Gets.
Yet.
I can't go On.
WithoUt trYing to clEar my doubts.
And TryinG to see the purpose in doing all this.
Yet,
It's not helping at all!

I'm SICK.
And TIRED.

MeaningLESS...................


I hate everything now. I can't do anything now. I feeL like DYING. But I daren't.