Hey. It's been a great monday. I truly believe that God had seen me through my weekend because I would not have imagined that i woulod be able to go through training on two days plus tution and mugging by my own strength. Anyway, theoretically speaking, I didn't actually have training at kallang on sat due to the bad haze. haa..it was kind of unexpected. In a way, it was a blessing in disguise too. I had some time to study or at least, I tried. hehe.But I DID go to the gym though. Haha. It was really packed on saturday! Seems like every one decided that air conditioned air was good for once.
I'm usually someone who isn't for the idea of exercising in air -conditioned places. Breathing in cold air makes my throat dry and will somehow make me feel sick after that. Moreover, air-conditioned air may contain more harmful bacteria and dust particles than fresh air if the air-con has not been cleaned for who knows hoe many months or even years! But nevertheless, it was the best altenative.
Church in the evening was a wonderful experince once again. Somehow, I feel that God has always been such a understanding father. He truly knows us inside out from the day that we were on our mother's wombs. The pastor talked about going beyond John 3:16 and aim beyond personal salvation. In other words, to work towards leading others to salvation too. She mentioned the obstacles that would hinder christians from moving beyond their own salvation and one of the points clearly struck a chord in me. It was that of CONFIDENCE. Clearly. it has been an issue that has been bugging me since the day I hit puberty and realised that i was facing a big big world now and self-esteem somehow seemed to be quite hard to achieve. But lets not dwell on past failures as the pastor also mentioned.
"Do not allow your past failures to stop you from MOVING ahead!"
I responded to the alter call. I knew that god was speaking to me. I almost didn't make it there. But thank God for friends like Min.:D When I went up, I just aimed for the most discreet and darkest corner of the alter( Yes,I was still fearful of the thought of going up). I started praying. At the same time at the back of my mind I was wondering why it was taking so long for someone to come up to pray for me(OK, I know this sounds stupid). I tried to pray for as long as possible with God and finally, when I finished my prayer, lifted my head and opened my eyes, someone came over to pray for me. SHe was a lady named May. She came to me and prayed. The first few words immediately impressed upon me. She mentioned CONFIDENCE. After her prayer, she requested for me to do something I never expected. She asked me to pray to God and tell him of my heart's desires and she was to agree with me. The 'small' me told me to run away and say " No thanks, I'm too shy.: But thankfully, I resisted it and I really did pray with her! YAYee!
I guess, at the end of the day, we should all know that when we come into the presence of our father, there are no obstacles. We should all let our hair down! He is afterall our daddy..as long as we go to Him with a pure and open heart, He will be there to embrace us and listen to our heart's desire to honour Him:
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