Visit to Ah yee's place

Meet the sisters! Left: Ma, Right: Ah yee)

Last Sunday, I went over to my aunt's place to bring her a blessing of food and in turn, we got to enjoy her cooking! I savoured the fried rice and curry. Mmmhmm. The curry wasn't hot at all and hence I was happily digging into the chicken soaked in the yellowish-green curry which smelt of herbs, which I took a liking to. I especially loved the tomatoes in the curry which had this tangy sourish taste. There was also mee siam! Home made by her which my parents ate more of. Well, the mee siam gravy proved too spicy for my weak taste buds and hence, I stuck with the fried rice for most of the time.

Other than the food, I discovered that the church that my aunt was currently attending was also an assemblies of God church! Cool!Ah... I hope that someday my mum an dad will come to trinity too..although I'm not very confident of that since they are already well settled down in their current church. But I guess only God knows best so I'll just leave it to Him.

I hope that my aunt and ma continue to stay close and not have a cold war again. That's what a family should be. Although ma has this concept that once your parents pass away, the siblings will no longer have any reason to stay close together and just drift away. I'm sure it is not in God's will for such a thing to happen but I guess it happened to her family and maybe she felt disappointed and came to this sad conclusion. But I guess deep down inside she probably wants to reunite with her other sisters badly and maybe she is just acting strong so as not to get hurt. Oh well, at least she is on good terms with ah yee now, that's something to be thankful for.

Actually, my visit to ah yee's was not all that happy initially. Somehow, they had this habit of 'showing off' somebody's talents and that somebody's name would inevitably surface and be related to almost every topic we talk about. Sigh. Is it because they are just purely proud of the person or is it an intentional act to compare who's better off and higher up? I was quite irritated at first with all the " Oh, so and so knows this, Rachael do you know?" and " Oh, so and so, is good at this, what about you?". It came to a point where I almost wanted to leave the house but then I stopped myself and told myself to not be affected and reassured myself with the fact that I had my own strengths. Oh well, imagine being compared to someone four years your junior. It's an awful feeling but all this insecurity only stems from the failure to see yourself as a special and unique child made by God and that God doesn't make everyone the same!

At the end of the day, I was still thankful for the visit because I learnt how fragile relationships could be. I guess the reason I felt irritated was the same reason that led to the cold war that mum waged against aunt at first. Can't humans exist happily and satisfied without showing off? Can't we just talk to each other out of love and not out of the need to show that one is better off? Can't we just be truly concerned about the person we are talking to? And are we being taken as fools by allowing others to keep on 'showing off' and we just feeling all the negative implications? I find this quite hard to understand and accept. Well, I guess only Jesus can love us for who we are. No matter how inadequate we think we maybe, His love is never selfish or demanding. The next time I visit aunt's house, I want to go with the love from above and see through His eyes!