PRUNE PRUNE PRUNE

Alright. I guess it's time that I announce that I finally understand and am convinced by what I am going through. I am undergoing the pruning process. *OUCH*. Well, I was pretty much convinced or rather, 100% convinced about this. Why? Initially, when I first heard the sermon on God pruning us at PL, I didn't quite listen to it and understand it per se nor did I ever imagine that such pruning would be really applicable to me. But the second time I heard this pruning thing, I was sold. haha. It all happened at a prayer meeting. There was this central point that kept appearing in my mind: God makes all things beautiful in His time:)

Well, at prayer meeting on wed, I was blown away by two junctures. First, during the worship segment, there was a song that went:

I want to let Jesus love me
Put His arms around me
...so I can see
That I AM BEAUTIFUL

I want to let Jesus love me
Put His arms around me
Lift me up so I can see
The beauty of the Lord

Yes. I want to let God love me and embrace me and tell me that I am beautiful in His sight. I am not a monster! I am not any machine! I am God's child! I am fearfully and wonderfully made! I was created in God's image! But for the longest time ever, all I could see was how ugly I was, how 'impossibe' I was and all day I would just look at how OTHERs are living out their lives abundantly in God's grace, and just feel sour and sore over how pathetic my life was. Well. LIES! ALL LIES! God has already given me an abundant life! I need to reach out for it and stop looking at the past. Stop letting the past weigh me down.I need to make things happen and not just wait for things to happen for me!